You are my roc.

I still need to buy new heels to go with my dress for Catherine's Debut. So far I have her gift bought, picked out a dress and that's about it. Oh I also need a new strapless bra, I want like a really good push up bra. I wasn't blessed with big boobs so I need those babies up as possible haha!

Oh I need to pick up my clothes from Mei that I got altered. Shit shit I totally forgot. I have dresses to get altered too, dammit.

Anyway, I had an interesting convo with my cousin the other day when I was at Wal-Mart with her. First she talks me into get straight bangs then she talks about getting Brazilians, omg the most interesting thing we've talked about by far lol. I love my cousin, just to put it out there. So I guess I'm coming with her to her next appointment, gosh fml haha. I don't even know what it's like to get a tattoo.

So today was just overwhelming, well actually quite interesting. Work was more fun than usual just coz I know my way around now. Like now I know who to suck up to and what to say to those people lol. But today I found out a lot of things about people that I work with. I never knew how corrupted a workplace can be. It's so gross, some girls just need to start respecting themselves.


If I wanna try to count the ways
You make me smile
I'll run out of fingers
Before I run out of time
The things to talk about
Suga you keeps it going on
Make me wanna keep my lovin strong
Make me wanna try my best
To give you what you want and what you need
Give you my whole heart, not just a little piece
More than a minimum, I'm talking everything
More than a single wish, I'm talking every dream

I don't give a damn who was before me All that matters is you're with me now.

I know why I'm being so insecure. I trust you, really. I know, I complicate things and I'm sorry. The first step to solving a problem together.. is admitting you're wrong.

I despise girls who can't keep their hands to themselves around guys that are NOT single. Seriously, who are you trying to impress here. Clearly not my boyfriend that's for sure. I rest my case.

Btw, I'm still working on my relationship with myself.

They say one man's trash is the next man's treasure.

I really want a part-time job this summer, I dunno if I can keep up with this full-time job anymore. I mean it's good money but the hours suck, whatever we'll see.

I can't wash my hair for 2 days starting yesterday so I can't wash it until Wednesday, gross. So my boyfriend saw my hair today for the first time and I'm surprised he liked it lol. The only thing that bugs me about my hair is that it's always in my face! It constantly needs to be maintained and I don't think I can pull off a bummy look anymore lol.

I want to start on my review for my test on Wednesday but I'm so exhausted :(.

Anyway, after I got my hair did yesterday with my cousins we went to Ikea for some food haha. I love me some hot dogs! My cousin Liza did some shopping for her new house and me and my other cousin just admired her lol. I just bought a long mirror for my room. Later on went to Wal-Mart to do a little bit of shopping. Every time I go there I spend more than I'm supposed to. I needed colour shampoo and tell me how I walk out of there with $50 worth of things. Too bad Winner's wasn't open coz otherwise I would've spent my money there instead. Got some McD's on the way out, yumm. It was good catching up with my cousin, I haven't really seen her coz of our busy lives. Whenever we talk about things it reminds me of a scene in The Hills. It's just the things we talk about and the way we say it, love her!

New do.

Woke up late this morning, I missed the 10:30 mass with my family. I went to Etobicoke with my cousins to get our hair did. Omg longest time I've spent in the salon! Since my hair was dark brown and I wanted to go light, my hair dresser had to strip my hair :(. So much damage done to my hair in one day. So after she stripped the dark brown/black, she put my peekaboo blonde and then she dyed the rest of my hair light brown. My cousins were convincing me to go bold and get straight bangs. The outcome? I gave in and I don't regret it! So basically I got my hair stripped, dyed my whole head light brown, peekaboo blonde, washed, cut and styled for a price that you'd never guess. Don't you just love hookups? It definitely made my life easier and I didn't need to put a hole in my wallet :). Anyways, I love my hair I just need to get used to it now. I feel very chic haha. I'll put pics up another day.. I just took pics and I put them up here forgetting that I wasn't wearing a bra in any of them haha delete!

I like us just fine.

My Saturday was chill, no rush or anything. I went to Value Village with my dad to drop off our junk that's been sitting in our basement forever. Then went to the mall to Zellers to get my passport photo and to exchange money to USD. I've been having sushi almost everyday this week and I think I'm getting sick of it. Sushi's great but I'm forgetting the taste of cooked food lol. Anyway, I'm home early on a Saturday night. I think I'm gonna start my homework I dunno but definitely something productive.

Beyonce - Roc

If I wrote a book about where we stand
The title of my book would be "Life with Superman"
That's how you make me feel
I count you as a privilege
This love is so ideal
I'm honored to be in it
I know you feel the same
I see it everyday
In all the things you do
In all the things you say

I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last And be the one that got your back.

A very well needed day. Went downtown the whole day with my boyfriend. He met up with some guy to sell his Nudies, omg $120 jeans man. We walked around Eaton's for a bit then we got hungry so we walked down Yonge and settled for Chinese. I was craving seafood like mad so we got lobster lol. He's like "you eat so little but your food is always expensive!" Okay, I eat so little compared to him, this guy's a beast lol. I swear everytime I'm downtown I never seem to want street hot dogs but as soon as I hit home I'm craving for one. Anyway, after we ate we shopped for a bit inside then got bored so we walked on Yonge, Dundas, and Queen. So tell me how I buy shoes at ALDO without even thinking about how much it was. I was so in love with them and whatever I just swipped my card and there I had it lol. I get back in Eaton's and I'm contemplating the whole time, yeah I ended up returning them. They where so cute but so not worth the price! I didn't really shop since I'm waiting till I go back to the States. I just got 2 tops from Aritzia, mm thanks babe!

Btw, today was my "sick" day lol. I almost got baited out by my mom coz my manager is friends with my mom. He calls her at work today asking where I was coz apparently I didn't call in but I did as soon as I woke up. If I got caught.. ahh fml! Never again.. well maybe but just not anytime soon haha.

Spring cleaning.

Wow I don't know what got into me today but I just felt like cleaning my room entirely. Work was work, then went to my cousins to pick up my siblings. Saw my adorable niece, gosh she's growing too fast! After that I went to the mall and cashed in my money and paid my stupid phone bill. I feel like I'm getting robbed, Telus has a way of charging you for things you don't know about. Anyway, getting back to cleaning.. later days.

I'm selfish cause I don't wanna share him with nobody.

Am I doing too much? Or am I just right?
Are you appreciating the things that I do for you?
Do you listen half the time I speak?
When I get angry at you for doing somethings shady, do you purposely not care?
Do I come to your mind as much as you do to me?
When things get rough, does your mind wonder "what if"?


Blaque - Questions

I wanna know why this feels so right
I wanna know why you hold me tight
Each and every night, it keeps me up all night
Thinkin' about the things I like
Can't believe you're in my life
I wanna know why you're the one
The things that they should have you've already done
God sent you straight to me
You make me wanna sing lalalalala

Chorus:
But when you look at me, do you see your wife?
Can you picture us lovin' each other for life?
Are you playin' the role, just like the rest
These are the questions that I ask myself
If, another should come, who's finer than me
And she wanna take your love away, would you leave?
Baby please answer these questions

Could this be my whole fantasy
Maybe you could just be too good for me
If I don't wake then I won't see
Cuz if I;m not the one you met, then who is in me
In the mist of the tears how come, I love you more, and more, and more
I never longed for no one, yes it's true
Seems like these questions keep me here with me

Chorus x2

If you, really wanna be with me
Then I'll say, I love you endlessly
One thing that I really wanna know
Will this end or will this grow
And now if you really be wanna be with
I'll love you endlessly
One thing that I really wanna know
Will this end or will this grow

Chorus x2

Tell me what they know about my love.

I've been up since 9:30am trying to get ready. I just finished half an hour ago lol. I'm killing time until my parents want to leave. On my way to go to my cousin Liza's baby shower then at 4:30pm I'm off to a baptism on my boyfriend's side. Man it looks so nice out, it better stay this way for later. I'm wearing tights and my new cute sandals so weather don't fail me!

Life just feels so much better after knowing I got accepted. Now I can finally move on, damn this rut.

A burden off my shoulders.

My day was pretty long. I went to work assuming everything was normal then I find out I get moved to another building, which btw is the building I started in. I don't mind getting moved around but I like being settled! Anyway, I worked from 9am-5:30pm then rushed myself to school for 6-9:30pm. I get home like 10:30pm and I checked if I had any mail. Thank goodness I didn't get my credit card bill yet lol. But yeah, I got a letter from Humber and as soon as I saw it I just ripped it open. I've been worried that I wasn't going to get accepted to my first choice ever since I found out I was accepted to my second choice. I dunno about you, but I feel pretty damn good. You don't always get your way and I am so thankful that this time it did. All I can say is.. there wouldn't be a better time to motivate me in school. But I still have time to decide which program I want to get into. Should I pursue a career in Accounting or Pharmacy? I love math and I'm actually good at it but I also love money lol.

There's no distance here when we're apart.

Happy Khassaki! For those who don't know it's Guru's birthday. Mmm.. I had samosa with chutney today, Indian food is the shit man. Don't get me wrong I don't like all Indian food lol.

Friday 18°? Say what! Yeah, finally some normal weather.

Gah I missed The Hills last night! Whatevs I'm just gonna watch it online right now. Toodles!

They just tryin' to get the love you give.

I feel like every month is just flying for me. My days go by so fast coz I'm always doing something with my time. It's good for me, it keeps me moving and distracts me from being lazy. The only thing is I'm so exhausted at the end of each day. Literally it's all work and no play, the only time I get to do what I want are on the weekends. And 2.5 days is definitely not enough time for me. Work and school is where all my time goes.

Saving is definitely not cool. Blowing money comes so easy to me but I can also easily save in big amounts. Make sense? I dunno man, my credit card is doing too much for me right now. I totally forgot about what the whole purpose of this card was. I also forgot that I've been spending money that's not really mine. I need some counselling lol. By the looks of it, it seems as if I'm doing bad but I'm really not that's just my point of view.

And my heart is sure it wants to be with you.

Happy Easter everyone :).

I really need to work on my to do list. I still don't know what to get Catherine for her birthday. Kyle's no help at all but giftcards are always safe! Oh and his mom's birthday is coming up.. no clue what to get her yet lol.

So I went to church today with family then went to dixie park for lunch. While my cousins and I were leaving we saw 2 movie stores getting raided. Damn where am I gonna get good pirated DVD's! That sucks for real but these people sell at their own risk.

Wrong when you're gone.

I love love this song. Currently feelin' Keri Hilson's swagger right now. Great inspiration!

Long weekend coming up.. don't really have definite plans. I guess anything goes. What a bad time to be getting paid.. long weekend = going out = money = being broke!

So I just ordered 2 magazines today. Some lady at work was promoting them. I got LouLou for 12 issues for $16 and Fashion magazine for $13. Pretty good deal.

Cause true love don't end.

I want to go on vacation already! Hmm.. my dad bought Florida tickets but he backed out so I have 4 tickets to Florida with hotel and food but not including air fare. I still need to read the terms and conditions so brb on this.

Other than that this weather really blows, I can't believe we have snow again! Sooo I'm watching Fast and Furious on Thursday, yeah I'm late. Friday is a welcome party for Kyle's cousin and his family. My cousin's baby shower is next week. I still need to buy a present for her..

To do list:
- buy a gift for my cousin's baby shower
- put together an outfit for her baby shower
- buy Kyle's mom a birthday gift
- buy an outfit for Jasmine's shin dig
- buy Catherine a birthday present for her debut

Sometimes love knocks you down.

Finally put songs on my phone, I'm such a loaft. I struggled doing it too, I hate it when things don't give you step-by-step instructions lol.

Painted my nails Tuscan sun by Revlon, such a pretty pink. I love Spring colours!

Omg, I need to get paid like nowwwww.

School is upsetting me right now. I need to call Humber like tomorrow.. fml!